Everything All at Once

An intimate and evocative memoir one womans experience with the universality of grief and the redemptive power of love as she endures her husbands 84-day battle with lung cancer.When Steph Catudal met her husband Rivs, she thought that the love, stability, and warmth she shared with her husband had finally dispelled her pent-up anger and grief over the loss of her father and her faith. But when Rivs became ill and was put into coma at the height of the pandemic, the painful memories of her childhoodwatching her father die of cancercame flooding back.Written with lush lyricism, Stephs account of how this crisis forced her to confront her past is raw, illuminating, and heartbreaking: her fathers death that wrecked her faith in God and jumpstarted a decade of rebellion, including running away from home and living out of a van at age 16, struggling with alcoholism, and delving into drugs to ease her pain. Sitting by Rivs's bedside, she grappled with the memories of the past and the uncertainties of the future while reckoning with the unknowns of her husbands illness. Rivs would endure a grueling 84 days in a medically induced coma, eventually undergoing chemo for a similar illness that stole her father. Like Cheryl Strayeds Wild, and Michelle Zauners Crying in H Mart, Everything All At Once is a heart-wrenching and ultimately uplifting reflection on resilience and a powerful reminder that we can find healing no matter how broken we are.